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Anger

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Today I had my therapy session. It was mainly to find out where I am now in my recovery from trauma. I am doing well but I still have a long way to go.

It dawned on me today that I have a lot of pent up anger inside me. I have never really “dealt” with it and it’s disturbing. I control myself well where the anger is concerned but sometimes little things set me off and I experience moodiness. On days like these, I won’t say anything. My fiance’ goes nuts when I’m quiet. He’s always telling me it’s not normal for a woman. I’ve never been one to talk just for the sake of talking. If I don’t have anything to say, I don’t talk. He then asks me, “Are you okay, Girl?” Of course, once is fine. I’m so fortunate to have such a thoughtful man by my side. But, he’ll ask me this every 15 to 20 minutes until I begin feeling angry and end up getting snappy with my answers. Then, he REALLY thinks something is wrong and I just end up being frustrated.

Ephesians 4:26 says, ” ‘In your anger do not sin’: Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry,” It’s getting harder for me to keep my anger in check. I am angry with being attacked, I am angry at being betrayed by the ones I loved the most, and I’m angry that I’m angry. Does that make sense?

I feel better acknowledging it but I want to overcome the rage inside and honor God with my life. Anger is an emotion…a very strong emotion. If I don’t allow the Lord to protect me, I’m liable to be swallowed up by this. I don’t want that. I have to keep reminding myself that anger is a “normal” response for what I’ve been through but it’s “not normal” to hold onto that anger and let it rule my responses. If I hold onto my anger, I am letting those who hurt me win in the end. I am giving them control over my emotions and becoming a victim all over again.

So, what do I plan to do about this? Well, I plan to pray to God to break the stronghold of anger in my life and replace it with His mercy and compassion. I plan on acknowledging my sins before God and ask Him to forgive me. I will NOT allow anger to short change me. Anger is good at the appropriate time but staying angry is NOT. As the old adage goes, I will let go and let God.

Jesus Is

Jesus is light…

Light Of The World
Shattering all darkness.

Shatter the Darkness
He is Truth…

Jesus Is Truth
Silencing all doubts.

Jesus Defeated Doubt
He is life…

Jesus Is Life
Defeating death.

Jesus Defeated Death

May these precious truths bring new joy and faith to your heart as you celebrate Jesus’ resurrection!

Jesus saith unto him, “I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by Me.”
John 14:6

Bridge of Christ

The writing is taken from the Easter Devotional Series in DaySpring.com . I added the pictures from graphics I found online through google.com . I also read Unshakable Hope’s blog and was inspired by the poem he wrote and how he placed the pictures.

Burr Pond

Beauty of God's Creation on Burr Pond_a The LORD has done it this very day; let us rejoice today and be glad.

~Psalm 118:24~

Today is such a beautiful day. After the snow and freezing rain, who would have thought Spring would finally arrive?! I’m feeling pretty good. It’s still cold out but the pain is less than it has been. I’m just enjoying this reprieve. The sun is shining so brightly and the air is still. If there wasn’t snow on the ground, it would be a perfect day to enjoy a cup of coffee overlooking Burr Pond. Then, perhaps enjoy a canoe trip where I could take a lot of pictures. I am definitely getting Spring fever!

I love spending time outdoors. It draws me closer to God. I am amazed at His creation and inspired by its beauty. I can picture the clear blue sky over the pond. I can see the lily pads lining the water. The birds are singing high above the treetops. A lone beaver slaps his tail on the surface of the pond. It’s so peaceful out here. The gentle gliding of the canoe makes a swishing sound as it passes through the water.  A fish swims by and hides within the maze of plants. I just love it here.

These are some of the photo’s I took on the last trip to Burr Pond. It was a bit overcast but the rain held off. My son and I were watching a little frog jump around in the mud. It was the cutest thing. I love spending time near the water. It’s always so peaceful and therapeutic.

Looking at His Reflection_a

The Bible often talks about the beauty of the Lord and just how much BETTER heaven will be than here on earth. My mind can’t seem to wrap around this concept. I know it’s true but when I see some of the beauty around me I wonder how anything could become MORE beautiful. I look at the flowers and am amazed by their perfection. I watch the squirrels and the birds and can’t comprehend the detail that went into creating such creatures. To think there is something more beautiful to look forward to! God’s creation is amazing and to think we are created in His image…WOW!

Burr Pond_a

At the Foot of the Cross Sung By Carol Shinde

I wanted to share this recording of me singing “At the Foot of the Cross”. I sang this song at church the week after I left the hospital. I had been severely depressed and I had tried to take my life. While at the hospital, I experienced God’s love for me in a way I never had. This song holds a lot of sentiment for me. I hope you are blessed by this recording.

Blessings,

Carol

At the Foot of the Cross sung by Carol Shinde

From Trish Robichaud’s website www.myoptimalhealthclub.org